Herb A

Thoughts of a Widower



Posted: Sunday, October 25, 2009

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I promised myself that I would not put my feelings of the loss of my wife and the loneliness I feel on my Blogs again but I was sitting watching the rain and felt saddened. So I started to write. I wanted to share my feelings with anyone who is going through the same heartache that I still go through almost two years afterwards. It's never gets better. The pain will always be there.

Thoughts of a Widower

As I look out my window watching the rain falling to earth and against the glass. It reminds me of the tears that fall down my face every night and every day. I could feel the cold wet damp weather that goes through you, the kind that chills your to the bones. It reminds me of the nights we sat by the fireplace cuddling to get warm.

I enjoyed holding you tight in my arms and touching your face with my hands, looking into your eyes and seeing all the love we had for each other.

When I close my eyes at night I ask to have that moment play once more time in my head.

My prays go unanswered and I feel abandoned. For no one knows the loneliness and hurt I go through every day without you. You are still the first face I think of in the morning and the last face I think of at night.

How do we as widowers and widows get over the lost of our loved ones?

Is it written that we will find true love only to lose it?

Will we ever find the love we once had again?

Or move on to another type of love?

Will it ever be as good as it was before?

Or will we have to settle for second best?

It is hard once you have found your soul mate to seek that kind of love again.

I am ready to start over again but I don't know how to obtain the love I am looking for.

I need mad passion in my life. A passion that will keep the flames of love and desire glowing for ever.

Some one who could make the world happy with her smile and her angelic voice.

They say the eyes are the windows to our souls. I need a good soul in my life so I can become a better one and so I can become happy once more.

I dedicated this to my love Brenda and to all the Widows and Widowers that have found their soul mate and lost them.

May we all find love once more?

Herb A Krantz is a 61 years old born 3/15/50. He has one beautiful daughter and three great grandchildren. He will do anything for his friends and family. He lost his wife of five years, quite unexpectedly and suddenly. She was still young and vibrant. Their love was a true love story. Herb collects art and creates abstract art. His other interest are writing, fishing, reading religious and self help books. He is always trying to make himself a better person, husband, father and friend. http://tazmantazmansvoice.blogspot.com/ http://tazmansvoice.blogspot.com/

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Top-level comments on this article: (5 total)
» left by Brianna Popsickle
 2 years 86 days ago.
I am sorry for your loss. I have not experienced such a loss and can't begin to think of my life without my husband in it. But I can only hope you will find love again. It will be different from what you shared with your wife, that can never be recreated with someone new. But I would like to think there is someone out there who will bring passion and happiness back into your life. I hope you never think of them as second best. Maybe just as love, second time around? Thanks for sharing such personal thoughts with us. 
» left by Herb A from Dresher Pa 2 years 86 days ago.
Thank you for reading my thoughts and sharing yours. All I can tell you is hug you husband thight evey morning and every night,let him know how much you love him. That's one thing I always did with Brenda.
 
Thanks
 
Herb A
» left by Anonymous
 2 years 85 days ago.
I'm listening.
 
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» left by Ella Camp
 1 year 356 days ago.
88 fans.
I will not tell you the pain will someday go away- for it never will.
 
I will tell you that it will become easier to bear- for it will.
 
I've been visited by death many times in my life, too many times. The most recent being the death of my beautiful 38 yr. old daughter Robin- Jan.. 2008. I have lost two grown children, a grandson and my husband of 39 yrs.
 
All these losses bear heavily upon my soul, but there is a strength in each of us we don't realize is there, until we need it. This crucible you bear now will not be light nor easy to carry, but you will go on to live and love again. You will never be the same as you were before- each death of a loved one robs us of a vital part of ourselves, but the ever surging strength of life rebuilds that part so that we may live on for as long as we need to.
 
I just posted a new article titled: "The Great Equalizer." Catch it- if you like.
 
Ella
» left by Herb A from dresher 1 year 347 days ago.
Thank you Ella. I have many deaths in my life. I just lost my one last and favorit Aunt a few days ago. The loss you have tyo deal with is much greater. You are a brave woman and everyonr who has lost a person in their life can learn from you encluding myself.
 
Thanks.
» left by James Miller
from Newmarket, UK 1 year 327 days ago.
I lost my wife in late 2007 after 40 years. I've now started a relationship with another widow, who was married for 33 years. It's as though we have a relationship with four people in it. Strange but common according to the research.
 
The Anonymous Widower
» left by byk42 in VA 1 year 313 days ago.
I appreciate your words. I married a widower who dearly love his wife of 18 years and lost her when they were 50 y/o. I am in a marriage of 3. It is strange, but since I believe the Lord put us together, 3 doesn't seem to be a crowd all the time, just wierd sometimes. I get to pray often :)
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